For quite sometime I have been struggling, more like angrily battling, a pretty sudden spike in my weight. It’s no secret those that are close to me have seen it, as they have seen me lose it and gain it lose it and gain it up and down back and forth…. are you dizzy and tired yet because I am. Nothing about my lifestyle has changed. I have the occasional drink or two on the weekend with my husband, as I should be able to do I bust my A$$ all day every day, I enjoy food that’s probably not great for me but I do it in moderation and watch my portions, again I should be able to do so……
So why is it that I’ve gained so much weight over the course of 2 months? Why is my hair falling out? Why is it brittle? Why is my skin dreadful? Why am I swelling up like I just shoveled an entire Chinese buffet in my face? And all while still being able to run, lift, work 3 jobs and be a full time Mom, Wife, and keep a clean organized house….you’d think goal weight wouldn’t be a problem right? You’d think I’d be at dance auditions to be a Texans cheerleader…… but this evil little syndrome has made it’s self at home in my body and it’s wreaking havoc.
I went to my doctor yesterday to receive results from a round of small tests and received only the first part of a diagnosis that’s breaking my heart….. I have PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome). I’ll put a link here for you medical junkies so that you can read the in’s and out’s http://women.webmd.com/tc/polycystic-ovary-syndrome-pcos-topic-overview for the rest of you in a short synopsis….
It means that I have a large amount of cysts on my ovaries. These little boogers cause weight gain, fatigue, hot flashes, bad skin, bad hair, and here’s where it really upset me…… causes infertility, and is common in severely over weight or morbidly obese people.
Whoa wait a minute…. you mean to tell me that when I was 265 pounds eating FRIED everything, drinking like a sorority brother and not exercising EVER I was fine? I was able to conceive a child? Everything looked great? No chance for diabetes and now on Monday I have to be tested for diabetes which they’re almost positive I also have……
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry, I can’t understand after making the decision to change my life in 2008 and lose 100 pounds how this is all happening 5 years later when I’m living a healthy life style. I can’t wrap my head around that……… I can’t.
As my doctor, who is simply the best and a friend, put it this diagnosis and the other diagnosis that generally accompany it are usually given to patients like the “old unhealthy morbidly obese Tera” patients like the old me are given that diagnosis and then go on to change their lifestyles and save their lives…….it’s so uncommon for it to be the other way around.
So what now? Well I was given orders to go home and enjoy something that I love to eat, healthy or not, for dinner and enjoy a glass of wine….. because starting today (Saturday) my journey begins. Yet another battle that I have to stand up and fight. A new way of eating, new way of living, and a series of tests on Monday involving needles…. I DESPISE needles. I will have my complete diagnosis on Friday and I hope and pray that it’s not diabetes along with the PCOS (they almost always go hand in hand).
I will be eating a Paleo life style, low carbs, pretty much Gluten free, so all of the “fun” ways of eating rolled into one. I have to eat foods that won’t spike my insulin levels in any way as that makes the cysts flare, and I don’t want to tick those cysts off anymore than they already are.
Thank you for reading, if in fact you still are I know is was quite rambly, getting my thoughts, fears, struggles out makes me feel ready. I feel like I can do this, I feel like I can beat this, I think…….
Healthy Wishes, T