More Than A Number

This week marks the 3rd week in a row that I have not weighed in and I feel FANTASTIC!! I promised myself that in 2011 I would try to curb my obsession with the scale and learn to embrace how I was feeling physically.

I was such a hypocrit because I was always telling people to stay off the scale and not weigh in daily and I found myself not only weighing in daily but sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. If that number spiked by even .2 I would send myself into a guilty spiral and sometimes eat things I shouldn’t. Weight loss, especially in large amounts, is such a psychological event. People don’t realize what a dramatic lifestyle change can do to you, and I’m talking  about on the inside.

I’ve touched on this subject before, so I wont dwell, but weight loss isn’t just about working out and seeing numbers decline on the scale. It’s about learning how to eat, how to shop for what to eat, how to cook, how to work out, and how to listen to your body…..and once you learn how to do all of that you’re in a brand new phase of your journey and you have to learn how to do it all over again. I made a vow on Dec 22, 2008 to lose 100 lbs in 1 year, and I did it….I then went on to lose an additional 15 pounds. I was feeling awesome and thought I would always be able to keep the weight off and then February 18th 2010 my world was sent into a full tilt spin. February 18th was the day Zachary was diagnosed with Autism, and even though I knew in my heart hearing the doctor’s say it out loud and creating medical records stating it made it final. It didn’t change who he was at all, but it changed me. I went into a depression, it was my fault that he was Autistic, and that additional 15 pound loss came back….and that sent me into a deeper depression. I have struggled for over a year now with how the changes and up’s and down’s in my life affect my weight loss. I struggle with being so overwhelmed with doctor’s appointments, therapy sessions, school, the house, the car, the groceries, cooking, cleaning etc etc…all of the stressors in life pertain to my weight and when ever I stepped on that scale and saw a number that didn’t make me happy I didn’t always step off and go work out, sometimes I stepped off and ate cookies.

I feel like we are surrounded by health and weight loss and the gym and work out programs and shows like the Biggest Loser and I Used To Be Fat that if you are on a journey for weight loss your stress level is going to be even higher due to the pressure for success. I’m here to tell you that YOU are the only one that can do this, and the only way to do this is by doing what’s right for you. You also have to learn to adapt to new levels in your journey and be prepared for your world to be sent into a full tilt spin because it just might. Find an outlet that makes you happy, find someone you can talk to and don’t be afraid to ask for help.

Remember that the scale doesn’t define you, the number that’s on that scale isn’t what sets the tone of your day and shouldn’t rule your life. If you’re at a plateau and you feel great, you’re eating well, and working out just ride it out….and try to step away from the one little thing in your bathroom that could keep you on that plateau for even longer.

These past 3 weeks have been tough, but pulling on jeans and having a little extra room is way better than stepping on that scale! Having people tell me that I look great and thinner is way better than stepping on that scale!

Remember, do what’s best for you….if you don’t then who will!

Healthy Wishes, T

New Recipe: Shrimp Quesadillas

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